What am I doing with myself? (An update)

I think I've reached it. I don't know how to describe it, but I think I've done everything I could to better myself in order to get a job in tech. Even some things I want planning on doing.

I got my CySA+ certification in November of 2025. I started doing freelance consulting in December. I published my first ever book in February, and I'm itching to do another one. But more interestingly, I got back into content creation.

Yes, after criticizing Instagram a few years ago I'm doing the exact thing I said I'd never do. Do I regret getting back here? Honestly it's complicated. It feels good to post content to people who need and want to hear what I say, but at the same time it feels frustrating and hypocritical because the people who like my content are cautious of the very same platforms for real security concerns. I'm crying as I write this blog post, and the only reason I'm concerned about disclosing that is how crying is considered "unprofessional" in the workplace.

The Good

So good news is, I'm not the only one. Weird thing to say, yes. But when my social media feeds turned me to someone in my very same shoes, it feels less lonely. I thought I was busting my ass off trying to be exceptional. It's tough to be knowledgeable in your field and let the world know it. It's even tougher to teach what you know to some stranger on the internet. And there are plenty of software engineers, cybersecurity analysts and AI specialists who work prominently in their respected fields and make people laugh doing it. So when I post my cybersecurity videos in an endless wave of similar content creators, it's great to know I'm running with a herd of some talented people.

The Bad

I literally write about how some centralized services that dominate the internet can possibly pose negative impacts to many industries (as well as the general public). If we base our careers on such platforms, we forget that such platforms are bound to the perogative of a board of stakeholders. For me to use Instagram and TikTok on my videos to promote myself puts me in a bit of a paradox. But I'm active on those applications with the intent to reach an audience that will see me. We all want connection because it makes us human. But billion dollar organizations need to take advantage of that power dynamic to retain users and collect data so they can sell it to third party data brokers.

The Truth

I'm here to help, and I'm willing to do so in my career with the skills I have to people who are willing to listen. When I post publicly on this blog or on my videos, I do so with the intent to make a change offline, not just for online validation. I just hope that the world will see it.